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So it may be a few days inbetween posts because I do not have internet access at my house and school wifi does not allow for access to blogging sites (plus i really don't want them or anyone finding out about this) so, sorry for the spaces between posts.

I've started exercising on a regular basis and have cut out all after school snacks :) i only eat dinner now (except tonight I had ice cream after :/ ) but yeah, i feel better actually, sadly though, it's Friday tomorrow. I usually don't have a problem with binging on Friday or Saturday, only Sunday. I always go on a huge binge. Anybody have any tips on how to stop that? :/  I'll weigh myself tomorrow (I do every Friday) and hopefully be able to post my current weight. I think i may have gained with all this binging v.v oh well, just incentive to do better next week right?

Vaca. in April

So, I'm going to the Keys in April. The first week in April to be exact. I need to lose about 15-20 lbs before then! 127lbs at 5'3 in a bikini? ew. I think not. I've been walking on the treadmill for 30 minutes each day, at least 20 situps, and 20 side leg lift things each leg (i don't remember exactly what they are called) and trying to restrict my calorie intake. Sadly, I've been binging like crazy lately :( It's so disgustiung and keeps me in constint pain so i don't know why I continue to binge? Maybe it's psychoclogical. Who knows. All I know is I have to get this under control so I can look at least half way decent in shorts and a tank top v.v

Weekends

So I'm at my Grandparents house(completely different state then where I live) and I'm going to go to my dad's house. Well, on the plus side, neither house ever has any snack type junk food. The down side though? I'm forced to eat three full square meals a day. Those meals aren't always healthy and my stomach is not used to so much food much less unhealthy food! I always end up gaining SO much weight. Today I've already eaten a bowl of cereal and a cookie! (the time this blog will say it posted is wrong the time is messed up on here and I'm not sure how to fix it) it's 11:19 AM as i typed it. WHen i post oit may be a bit later but whatever. Anywho, I ate the cheerios and cookie and went to my Opa's (grandfather) garage to work it off. He used to have a treadmill, and elliptical, etc. It's all gone! I'm so screwed. Maybe I can convince my dad to go on a walk with me? Big city so he wont let me go on my own. :/

Hello, for starters I'd like to say welcome to my blog. :) I'm just an average, fat teenage girl looking to be skinny. Total cliche right? Well yeah. That's me. My posts may be triggering. They may deal with anorexia, ednos, depression, etc. It's just my life and this is an outline. I'll post progress failures etc.

I'm 15.
5'3
sw- 140lbs
cw- 127lbs
gw1- 130lbs
gw2- 120lbs
gw3- 100lbs